High’s & Low’s
Apologies again to those who have been asking how things are going. I was in Bournemouth this weekend and I’ve actually been feeling a bit out of sorts the last few days. I haven’t been sleeping at all well in the last few months and the deprivation is starting to catch up with me. Despite feeling exhausted, anxiety and an over active mind is keeping me awake at night. The docs asked if I would benefit from a sleeping tablet, but I’ve taken them in the past (when recovering from my surgeries) and ended up feeling like a zombie the day after - even on the lowest dose. Believe me, I’ve tried everything.
Anyway, tomorrow is treatment day one. Today I’ve been at the hospital for all the usual blood tests etc. This afternoon I got a taxi to St Georges in London and had another echocardiogram, ECG and examination by the heart doc. Everything seems to be OK in the heart department.
So that’s all good.
Tomorrow I’ll be in from 9am until I come home on Thursday evening. Then it’s back in on Friday for more tests.
It’s a full on week!
I’ve been quite emotional today but I think that’s because I feel anxious about the week ahead. The lack of sleep hasn’t helped, and I’ve lost weight because I’m not eating properly. It’s a dangerous cycle… stress = sicky feeling = lack of appetite = more sicky feeling because I haven’t eaten properly = feeling weak because I don’t have enough energy. Hopefully this’ll all fizzle out next week when I’m back at home and over this weeks events. Fingers crossed. It’s all gotta be done.
